kelly-capricorn

Oh baby baby, thanks! What can i say? finally get over my little baby Kelly and be back to WOW, someone amazing!!
I feel like a star. I feel so happy and elated. Every day is just a gift.

Mom, i love you so much! You are amazing women even u didnt have time to care about me! When i heard u laugh, i did feel WOW, energetic!!

Hey, BOiz, for all those  who think i like them, I AM SINGLE!! Beauty of being single is partying hard and having fun!!
Dennis, (my cousin), i cant wait to jump around the clubs and bars with you. GET ON THE STAGE AND SHINE!

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WOW, WOW

This is one of those days when i just feel just nothing or just fully lost perhaps. Trying to not become such a fat chick cuz i feel like i have been eating cuz i am upset. What do we call that? Emotional eating?? Something like that but yeah, if i gain weights, i will srsly be depressed !!LOL

I srsly dont know ! I feel like i am kinda annoying cuz i have been talking about how bad my mom is! Yes, no doubt, she is annoying cuz i think she does need sorta of Mediation to calm herself down and stops talkng about the past and my father. This world would be so much brilliant and wonderful if mom could srsly smile with happiness instead of whinging daily about a man who she loves/hates so much. He is not here anymore. From the bottom of my heart, i would love to tell mom how much i love her but i just cant seem to do it cuz she doesnt listen and she only whings and blames. It is very hard to hold all the craps in when talking to her and usually, i just break down and cry after that and yeah, i look horrible when i cry so dont look!!

I do feel like the need of having someone there for me when i cry. Sometimes, i actually wanna find my cousin or aunty and just cry or wateva but i just cant do that. For my whole life, i think i only hugged my sister so tight when daddy was about to place under 2 meters deep down in the ground. Yeah, that feeling is still here. No more seeing you smiling daddy, i more seeing you smile but i know you are perhaps happy now or perhaps, looking at me and being upset cuz ur daughter is so lost and seems like she is  about to fuk up her life again. Yeah, just like you, when u were upset, u smoked but since i dont smoke, i will just drink and srsly, it makes me warmer and makes me sleepy and yeah, make me feel different! I aint an alcoholic yet , papa but yeah, i wish you could guide me. I wish u would be in my dream tonite and hold me like you did 4 months ago. That dream is incredible and i actually cried when i woke up. Your touch and your hug that night were so warm and great that i miss it every single day.

You know what papa? Bro's gf is pregnant. He is gonna  have a kid and if you were still alive, i dont know how happy u would be right now. I still remember that smile when u knew Ivy was pregnant and yeah, she is gonna give birth at the end of June(little mixed baby boy) but you just cant see him. Daddy, remember to come home and see him. I feel like you are still around and i miss you so much. I am trying to look forward to the future ahead of me positively but mom is sorta in the way of my happiness. I wish she wouldnt talk about you in such way, papa. I wish she would only miss you cuz u are so great. Daddy, bless Ty since yeah, mom is always trying to find a girl for him but wellz, i think he has the right to choose someone who, he will spend the rest of his life with and yeah, this girl is pregnant.  Tears and pains, ...>.<..., i have no strenghth -- i dont wanna know but i cant stand it. I love you both so much that i dunno what to do ! Daddy, bless us! Daddy, miss you.