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I am listening to this song - it is called " Dance with my father" Sang by Celine Dion and apparently, i am loving to the max. I love my father who passed away 2 years ago and believe me, my heart was shattered and the universe fell apart. I havent cried for a long time because i cried too much bk then but recently, i have been crying for him. 

Life is a journey of happiness, sadness, bitterness and loneliness and everyone of us is out there waitin for LOVE. I know heaps of people don't believe in it but for me, Love has played a big part in my life. The unconditional love that i got my my dada has encouraged me to live on and if i could have a final dance with him, i'd play a song that would never end and if i could have a wish, i would wish he could come back to me and my mom. It is so hard to believe that the love is always here and you are gone, daddy. I love you heaps. 

I think i have made a mistake, Daddy. i was mistaken Love and Like in the sense that i might have lost an important chance to be with this guy who i think he is very caring and sweet but you know what, i wont just stay and hope for a change because i wont let any guys walk all over me. However, i dunno if i have made a right decision to just leave the guy i actually have a little feeling for but i guess if he doesnt come back as he srsly doesnt, he isnt the one for me. All i can say is to forgive myself and stand up and live happily. I look at the girl in the mirror and i realise how beautiful she is and how hurt she would be if i dont forgive her. I might make mistake but it is all good. The universe will bring him bk if he is the one or it will bring me something better. 

I kno i could be very positive at time but give me wisdom and strength to live happily, Daddy. I love and miss you and i blame you for making me this way. I blame you for making me become a girl who is TOO STRONG from the outside but longs waiting for someone to protect me but noone. HAHAHAH --- hence, you have to always be with me - I love love love and miss miss miss you.

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