WHISKY!!

Whisky lullaby is such a great song but i am sure i am not gonna be the one in it!

Love ends up with the death of both of them!

Die is not the solution! Loving someone is to give them happiness and be there to support them.

Loving someone is to let them go, let them live the life they deserve!

Even you cry every single night but thats what love means.

Loving someone means missing them at night and wish they are there for you but if they are not here, you dont complain because you know that she or he is happy with their life.

Loving someone isn't about to get their attention but to know they are safe and healthy.

Loving someone is to cry in silence and to smile in front of them so they aint worried.

Love and like are different. When you love someone, you will cry. You will keep their stuffs and do things that you know they always do.

Alcohol doesnt help but i still drink it and after drinking it, tears will just pour out. ALl the songs i hear just compliment to my pain.

Wishing that daddy would be alive again, wishing that Neil would be here again.

Daddy, ill love you still i die because you brought me to life and thank you! You are not here anymore and you probly cant see this, but i still love you and i still cry for you! You dont know how much i blame myself ! I wish i was there, giving you a massage when you were alive! You dont know how much i wanted to be with you ! i drank,i did everything that i thought i would forget you. I drank, i got drunk, i wanted to drink your memory away but i never got drunk enough to forget you.

I was bad and sad on Ty's engagement! I wanted to save him from our customers but the purpose was that i wanted you to be there! I wanted to see your only son being a real man and he got married. i missed you so much that i was drunk and cried and broke down! i blamed myself every night! Daddy, i already knew that i would never get over you! Time will not heal but i want you to be proud of me! I wont die and i wont live just like now! I will make it on my own and you will be proud of me! Even though you might hurt mom but you were a great father and you always wished me to be happy! Daddy, you taught me to not to cry! you told me not to show my feeling! YOu told me to be strong and i will daddy!

Facing the truth is good but it doesnt bring you back but ill love mom more and more! Ill help you to love her more and more! Ill be there for her because i love her so much and i would srsly die if she eva leaves me! Daddy, i am sorry! Everytime, i listen to a sad song, i think about you and your tears when i was bit loud! I was bad! I blame myself for upsetting you! Sending us overseas to study but waiting at home for us to come back, it killed me when mom sed that! Everytime, mom told me about you and how much you loved us, it is killing me and i couldnt stop myself from crying!!! I am sorry

Ill be strong and no matter what happens, i will stand up! My heart is broken since you left me, daddy! It is just breaking into smaller pieces! It gotta goes to the lowest point before it could come back up!

Ill be fine on my own and i dont want him to feel sorry for me or to feel bad !